>> Sunday, October 21, 2007
Why is it that just when things start to get better, you kind of want to cry?? Why am I feeling these feelings all of the sudden? It's amazing how the mind can prevent emotions until you see a hope for betterness. There were times in the past couple of months that I started to feel the emotions building but I managed to hold them back out of necessity not to break down. Now I'm almost welcoming them. I think there are happy tears mixed in. I went to an amazing church this morning and made some really great friends and I feel like God is just pushing me to wait and listen. I came to Charlottesville for a reason. I feel like I'm so much more open to new things.. not so afraid of those things that are foreign. And on top of that I kind of want to cry bc I think my computer has a virus. That really sucks.
Reason NOT to cry- Clemson scored more points in the game against Central Michigan (14-70) than we have in 26 years! So that's pretty awesome. Yet we're still not ranked. Who knows.