>> Monday, March 1, 2010
First, some house keeping items. My poor little blog has been getting hacked lately (how do they get past those word codes? I can't even get them right half the time.) So for now on I'm moderating my comments before they are posted. Figured I would let you know in case you were wondering why.
Second, this anxious little Southerner is looking for some new photo shoot ideas. I had a ton of fun shooting in the snow, but I'm more than ready to get out on a warm day and get some artsy shots. Who's with me?
I read a blog today in my reader from one of my favorite photographers.. and I can't remember for the life of me which one it was. I swear I scanned through my reader a thousand times this morning but I couldn't find the post. Maybe it's meant to be, since the message was so profound that I don't need all of the text to get bogged down in unnecessary details (though I do wish I could give credit):
"Comfort Kills Creativity"
I think that pretty well describes my life since graduating from VT. I have been 1) uncomfortable and 2) driven to be more creative than I have been since I was a little girl.
That's why I've been trying really hard to remind myself that this period in my life is important. As much as I desperately want a challenging job, financial security and all of that, I forget that the difficulties that come with not having these securities are making me a more well-rounded person. Sure, I still get pessimistic, frustrated and jealous of my friends who seem to have a lot more figured out.. but I'm also realizing that there are other things that can make me happy. Not saying this is the best time in my life.. just saying I have learned how to adapt to a situation that would normally be extremely stressful and find some beauties in it. More specifically, when times are tough our bodies push us towards survival and away from despair (thank goodness).
I went to the Watershed in Lexington last night and really connected to the speaker's main message:
"Faith isn't about growing closer to God in order to avoid despair.. it's about finding joy in those desperate times"
Or something like that.
Very true. Very true.
It's also interesting to me that the world seems to be falling apart during my "stressful" unemployment stage. Honestly, it's very hard for me to feel sorry for myself when you see the grief happening in Haiti and Chile. I have a very nice roof over my head, family that loves me very much, great health, a growing photography business, an awesome dog and time to hang out with friends outside of work. My greatest concern is that I'm not contributing to a 401K and my resume is kind of bleak for this year of my life.
Seriously?? This is my biggest concern?
I guess if you're an ambitious person, not having a challenging job is one of the worst things that can happen to you. Fair enough. I just like that I can still be gently reminded that I'm not the only person struggling through this right now and maybe, just maybe, I'm going to learn a very valuable lesson from it all. The first being that I'm going to seriously appreciate my next job. Like.. REALLY appreciate it. I've always worked hard.. that's a given. But to know what I know now, I think it's going to be a little bit harder to complain on those not-so-fun days. (Friends, please hold me to this.. m'kay? ;)
Here's a photo from Help-Portrait in Greenville with Christina. Another event that might not have happened had I found a full time job right out of grad school.
Cheers and happy Monday!